Testimony of April Ward

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Satan has tried to destroy me--but my faith is in God who fights for me.

     As a small child I was secure with both of my parents. We attended church faithfully. My family was on the right tract, and God was a great influence for us all. The devil didn't like that, so he tried to destroy me physically.
     God saved my life when I was badly burned from top to bottom at age two by water from a radiator. Before my parents took me to the hospital, they prayed for me, and I survived. God healed me quickly, but I still have blistering scars from the burns.
     Satan continued to attack me (and our family), and tried to destroy me emotionally. My parents ended up divorcing, and I was molested, raped and assaulted (both before and after my parents divorced).... I was scared, and my mother didn't know what to do, so we ended up doing nothing.

I was ashamed and could not understand what I did to deserve what had happened.

I  loved the people who hurt me and never became angry with them. Instead I started blaming my mother for always working and never being there; I also blamed myself for not knowing what to do.

When I was 13 years old, I asked Jesus into my heart. I felt happier after that, but I couldn't let go of what had happened, and I built walls around my heart to keep from being hurt.

I started searching for love in all the wrong places, and I grew bitter--hating men. I didn't believe anyone truly loved me, and when anyone said they did, I became afraid they would hurt me.

I wasn't proud of my life and way I lived it. My relationship with God wasn't very good; I was in and out of church, I prayed only when I needed something, and I never committed to anything.

When I was 17 years old, I made an attempt at having a normal life by getting married, but I still couldn't feel any love. I didn't love myself, so how could I love anyone else? So I got a divorce.

Satan tried to destroy me mentally after the divorce, and I had a breakdown. I knew I had to change, but I couldn't do it on my own. I needed God's help, and at age 19, I decided to fully commit my life to God. I began reading the Bible, and I began praying and seeking his will for my life.

Jesus has healed my heart from the hurts of the past and will continue to do so as long as I allow him to. I am moving forward with my life on a newer, straighter journey....

I am married now and have a family of my own. I belong to a church fellowship where the people really care about me. They show their love for me. They are like family to me, and I love them.

I know God has always loved me even when all the bad things happened. And Jesus has never left or forsaken me even when I rebelled and did everything I knew better than to do.

Because God loved me even when I didn't love him, I now know what true love is.

I don't understand why everything happened to me the way it did, but I do know what I would do now if it ever happened again, and I hope God allows me to help others who have gone through the same things.

I praise God for the strength and wisdom he has seen fit to give me, and I will serve him from now on with all my heart.

Be careful what you eat...

               ... to the hungry soul, every bitter thing is sweet

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