Satan has tried to destroy me--but my faith is in God who fights for me.
As a small child I was secure with
both of my parents. We attended church faithfully. My family was on the right tract, and God was a great influence for us
all. The devil didn't like that, so he tried to destroy me physically.
God saved my life when
I was badly burned from top to bottom at age two by water from a radiator. Before my parents took me to the hospital, they
prayed for me, and I survived. God healed me quickly, but I still have blistering scars from the burns.
Satan continued to attack me (and our family), and tried to destroy me emotionally. My parents ended up divorcing, and I was
molested, raped and assaulted (both before and after my parents divorced).... I was scared, and my mother didn't know what
to do, so we ended up doing nothing.
I was ashamed and could not understand what I did to deserve what had happened.
I loved the people who hurt me and never became angry with them. Instead I started
blaming my mother for always working and never being there; I also blamed myself for not knowing what to do.
When I was 13 years old, I asked Jesus into my heart. I felt happier after that, but I
couldn't let go of what had happened, and I built walls around my heart to keep from being hurt.
I started searching for love in all the wrong places, and I grew bitter--hating men. I
didn't believe anyone truly loved me, and when anyone said they did, I became afraid they would hurt me.
I wasn't proud of my life and way I lived it. My relationship with God wasn't very good;
I was in and out of church, I prayed only when I needed something, and I never committed to anything.
When I was 17 years old, I made an attempt at having a normal life by getting married,
but I still couldn't feel any love. I didn't love myself, so how could I love anyone else? So I got a divorce.
Satan tried to destroy me mentally after the divorce, and I had a breakdown. I knew I had
to change, but I couldn't do it on my own. I needed God's help, and at age 19, I decided to fully commit my life to God. I
began reading the Bible, and I began praying and seeking his will for my life.
Jesus has healed my heart from the hurts of the past and will continue to do so as long
as I allow him to. I am moving forward with my life on a newer, straighter journey....
I am married now and have a family of my own. I belong to a church fellowship where the
people really care about me. They show their love for me. They are like family to me, and I love them.
I know God has always loved me even when all the bad things happened. And Jesus has never
left or forsaken me even when I rebelled and did everything I knew better than to do.
Because God loved me even when I didn't love him, I now know what true love is.
I don't understand why everything happened to me the way it did, but I do know what I would
do now if it ever happened again, and I hope God allows me to help others who have gone through the same things.
I praise God for the strength and wisdom he has seen fit to give me, and I will serve him
from now on with all my heart.